Cause I can’t wait to figure out what’s wrong with me, so I can say “this is the way I used to be.”

 

I’m feeling an urge to blog right now but don’t really know what to write about, so maybe this post will become something at some point.  Maybe not.  I do this weird thing on short drives, i.e. to and from work.  I’ll be in a certain mood and their for want to hear a certain song, or a certain type of song or any song from a certain artist, but instead of going to that artist, song, or genre on the ITouch, I’ll put it on random and then skip skip skip skip constantly until I’m seventy five percent through the drive, and haven’t heard but a snippet of music.  Then I’ll finally give in, and just chose the song, artist, or genre I’ve wanted to hear the entire time.  

Why do I do this?  Maybe it’s fear.  Now that I really think about it.  Fear that I’m so focused on what I think I want I’m going to miss what I really wanted but didn’t ow I wanted the whole time.  On second thought, is that even possible?  Can you want something if you at that moment in time don’t want it?  It’s what happens in relationships.  People are afraid to commit to another person due to a fear that they’ll miss out on something better.  But can you really truly desire something that you are unaware exists, or rather, that you know exists, but don’t crave at that moment.  On the relationship point, is fearing yourself missing out on someone causing you to miss out on someone due to the fear?  I better stop, I’m getting out of “No Explanation Needed” Smash Mouth territory here and full bore throwing myself into “Everything has a deeper seven meanings”  Arcade Fire territory.  

I get most of my music accidentally.  I don’t listen to the radio for two reasons:  A.  it bores me and there are far too many commercials, also I find I don’t like most of the music everyone else seems to love, so those same top forty over and over never do me any justice.  B.  As a kid, by sister ruined music for me by taking this action while in the car:  She should flips station by station, a song would come on that she’d squeal and say “Ohh I love this song!” and then be bored of the song thirty seconds later, and the chase would start again.  I would never actually get to listen to a song.  

When I say I get my music accidentally, I mean that the music isn’t what I’m looking for when I find it.  Some examples, of course:  first is Andrew Bird.  I got into his music from albinoblacksheep.com.  Albinoblacksheep.com is a great site that’s pretty popular and focuses on the development and tutelage of Flash animation.  They also have a forum (user beware), that you can discuss the art on the site and flash in general.  I like to watch everything on there, and have actually found multiple songs/artists from flash videos.  The first of which was this flash video here.  It’s called “That Bird Stole My Kicks”  nothing to special (although their is a funny “Flashdance” reference in it), but I instantly fell in love with the song and then looked up Mr. Bird and then loved everything else he did.  

The other path to music for me is television.  I have found a mass amount of music/artist from watching television and hearing a song I liked.  An example of this is Landon Pigg.  I first found him on an episode of Grey’s Anatomy.  Of course he wasn’t on the actual episode, but rather a song of his was.  Funny side note:  his song (most likely for licensing issues) is not on any Grey’s Anatomy soundtrack, so don’t be looking for it on there.  Once again, loved the song “Sailed On” used in the episode instantly then found other stuff from his and loved it as well.    I guess when it comes down to it, small things work just like big things.  You never find them where or when you look.  They just happen to come along when they choose to.  

Song Recommendation for the day:  I would like to recommend “Far Away From The Sounds Of Cars” by Ravens & Chimes, however I can’t find a link for it anywhere (tear) so I’ll give you “Archways” instead.  

The post title comes from John Mayer’s “Split Screen Sadness”  Check it out.